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Pull Out What Didn’t Make It.

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.” — Ecclesiastes 3:1 (KJV)

This morning, I decided it was time to reset my garden.

Life had gotten in the way, and honestly, so had disappointment.

Some things I planted never became what I imagined. The squash bed became the scene of what I jokingly call the vine borer massacre. The kale and collards eventually lost their battle with the beetles. There are potato bags I am almost afraid to open because I don’t know whether there is a harvest underneath all that dirt—or evidence of an experiment gone terribly wrong.

But before I call the season a failure, I need to tell the whole story.

We harvested greens five times.

There are three gallon-sized bags of tomato sauce in my freezer, made from tomatoes that grew right here in this garden.

There was one little green pepper.

There were about ten green beans—not exactly enough to open a produce stand.

There were carrots.

And basil, radishes and beets we would never eat, but were pretty and make novice gardeners feel like experts.

And there were more social-media-worthy pictures than I can count.

There was laughter. There was anticipation. There were lessons I didn’t know I was planting. There were mornings when I walked outside just to see what had changed. There were days when checking on something growing gave my mind somewhere peaceful to go when life was doing entirely too much.

Not everything the garden produced could be put on a plate.

Some of the harvest fed me differently.

Funny how quickly disappointment can make us forget the harvest.

We can become so focused on what died, what got eaten, what never produced, and what didn’t turn out the way we planned that we overlook all the evidence that something did grow.

So no, this garden was not a total failure.

Neither was this season.

And neither am I.

I don’t have to throw away the whole garden just because everything in it didn’t make it.

I can pull out what is finished.

I can clean up what was damaged.

I can keep what still has life.

I can remember what already fed me.

I can refresh depleted soil.

And I can plant again.

There’s even one Brussels sprout plant that’s been hanging around since last November.

She never produced one identifiable Brussels sprout.

By the original expectation, I could call her a failure.

Except we discovered that her leaves were delicious mixed with our greens.

She didn’t produce what I expected.

She still fed us.

And maybe that’s a word for more than my garden.

There are seasons in life that don’t produce everything we expected either. Goals don’t get reached. Plans get interrupted. Things we carefully planted get attacked by circumstances we never saw coming. Energy gets spent dealing with things we never intended to carry.

It’s easy to stare at what didn’t happen until disappointment convinces us that nothing happened.

But that’s not always the truth.

Sometimes there are three bags of sauce sitting in the freezer while we’re mourning the squash.

Sometimes we are so busy counting the ten green beans that we forget the greens fed us five times.

Sometimes what we planted never becomes what we expected, but like my stubborn old Brussels sprout plant, it finds another way to feed us.

And sometimes the harvest isn’t something we can count at all.

Sometimes it is peace.

Sometimes it is laughter.

Sometimes it is a lesson.

Sometimes it is simply having somewhere to put our hands while God settles our hearts.

So today, I’m taking a lesson from my garden.

A disappointing harvest does not mean the soil has lost its purpose.

And an unmet expectation does not erase a harvest that has already happened.

Some things need to be pulled.

Some things deserve another season.

Some things may never become what I originally expected, yet still have value.

And some empty places are simply waiting for new seed.

So I’m not dragging everything that disappointed me into the next season.

I’m cleaning the bed.

I’m keeping what still has life.

I’m remembering what already fed me.

I’m refreshing the soil.

And, by the grace of God, I’m planting again.

And Then I Went Outside…

A few hours after writing those words, I finally made it to the garden.

I had gotten distracted. Life was still doing what life does. Both of my boys needed rides to work, and somewhere in there I stopped to get breakfast. The great potato excavation would have to wait.

But when I finally went outside, the garden had another lesson waiting for me.

There were tomatoes.

Lots of tiny ones. A couple of the last larger ones. Two more green ones still hanging on the vine that I decided to leave there and give a little more time.

And Pip—my little pepper plant that had managed to produce just one tiny green baby—had quietly ripened that baby all the way to red.

I had gone outside thinking about what needed to be cleaned up.

Meanwhile, the garden was still producing.

There I stood with a bowl of tomatoes and one little red pepper from plants I had already mentally begun wrapping up for the season.

And tonight, I’m making spaghetti.

These tomatoes won’t make it into another gallon freezer bag. They’ll be chopped up and added to the jarred sauce we’re eating tonight.

And suddenly there was another lesson.

Some harvest isn’t meant to be stored for later. Some of it shows up just in time for what you need today.

Maybe that’s why we have to be careful about declaring a season over simply because it didn’t produce the way we expected.

There may still be something growing that we haven’t noticed.

There may still be something ripening while we’re looking at what died.

There may still be provision hanging on a vine we were preparing to pull.

And sometimes God doesn’t give us enough to stock the freezer.

Sometimes He gives us enough for tonight’s spaghetti.

That’s still provision.

That’s still harvest.

That’s still something worth thanking Him for.

So perhaps today’s garden reset isn’t only about pulling out what didn’t make it.

Maybe it’s also about slowing down long enough to recognize what did.

What survived.

What fed me differently.

What is still growing.

And what showed up right on time.

Prayer

Lord, forgive me for the times disappointment has made me forget the harvest.

Thank You for every place where something grew, every provision I almost overlooked, every unexpected thing that still managed to feed me, and even the harvests I couldn’t put on a plate.

Thank You for what I was able to preserve for another season.

And thank You for what You provide simply because I need it today.

Give me wisdom to recognize what has finished its season and courage to release it.

Show me what still has life, even when it doesn’t look the way I expected.

Keep me from pulling up something You are still allowing to grow just because I decided its season should be over.

Restore the places in me that have been depleted. Refresh the soil of my heart. And prepare me for whatever You want to plant next.

Help me remember that a disappointing harvest is not the end of the garden.

There is still good soil here.

There may even be something still ripening on the vine.

And with You, there is always reason to look again before I call the season finished.

Amen.

Love, Chelle
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GOD NEVER ASKED THE SHEPHERD TO BECOME THE PASTURE

Micah 5:4 “And he shall stand and feed in the strength of the LORD, in the majesty of the name of the LORD his God; and they shall abide…” — KJV

I was supposed to be going to bed. Instead, I went looking for a scripture I couldn’t quite remember. I knew it was somewhere in Micah and had something to do with standing and feeding.

I found it. And apparently God found me.

“And he shall stand and feed in the strength of the LORD…”

Now, I understood the feeding part immediately. Lord knows I feed people.

Sometimes literally. Sometimes emotionally. Sometimes spiritually. Sometimes financially.

Sometimes I am feeding people who have apparently misplaced both their spoon and their ability to locate the kitchen.

But that’s another devotional.

What caught me was stand and feed. Not run around and feed.Not panic and feed.

Not figure out how you’re going to keep everybody fed tomorrow while you’re still trying to feed them today.

Just—Stand. And feed.

Now wait a minute, Lord. Because I have gotten pretty good at doing a whole lot more than standing:

I fix. I worry. I calculate. I rearrange. I make another call. I find another way.

I carry things nobody actually asked me to carry and then have the nerve to wonder why my back hurts.

Figuratively speaking. Well…sometimes literally too.

But I kept reading. “…in the strength of the LORD.”

And there it was. That little part I could have easily read right past was apparently the part God wanted me to sit my tired self down and hear.

The strength wasn’t supposed to come from the shepherd.

Now, Micah is prophetically speaking about Jesus, the coming Ruler from Bethlehem. He is the Shepherd in this passage. So this isn’t a scripture telling me to run out and become everybody’s shepherd.

Thank God, because I have enough sheep.

But looking at the way He shepherds showed me something about the way I have been trying to care for what God has entrusted to me.

The Shepherd stands. The Shepherd feeds. But the Shepherd operates in the strength of the Lord.

And somewhere while sitting with that, a sentence hit me hard: God never asked the shepherd to become the pasture.

Ouch.

Because I think I have done exactly that. The shepherd leads the sheep to the grass. The shepherd leads them to the water. The shepherd watches over them and cares for them.

But the shepherd does not lie down in the field and say, “Well, I guess y’all better start eating me.” Yet how many times have I done the emotional equivalent?

Here, take some more of my energy.
Here, take some more of my time.
Need encouragement? I’ve got you.
Need prayer? I’ve got you.
Need something handled? Give it here.
Need money? Okay, now let’s not get carried away. 😂

But you get my point. Somewhere along the way, serving can quietly turn into supplying.

And if you’re not careful, you stop seeing God as the Source you’re helping people reach and start behaving as though you are the source.

That will wear you slap out.

Because if I become the pasture, everybody grazing on me will eventually leave me bare.

There was the second ouch.

Maybe some of my exhaustion isn’t simply because I have too much to do. Maybe sometimes I’m exhausted because I’m trying to produce what God only assigned me to distribute.

I don’t manufacture peace.
I can point toward the One who gives it.
I don’t manufacture wisdom.
I can ask the One who has it.
I don’t manufacture provision.
I can use what God puts in my hands.

And apparently—I needed Micah to remind me of this at bedtime—I don’t manufacture strength either.

“…in the strength of the LORD.”

His strength. Not mine.

And that made me think about something else. What happens when the shepherd gets hungry?

Because sometimes I am so busy making sure everybody else is okay that I don’t notice that I’m running on fumes until I’m already empty.

And maybe saying, “Lord, I don’t have anything left,” isn’t admitting failure.

Maybe it’s finally telling the truth. Maybe it’s the moment the shepherd remembers:

Oh, I’m hungry too.
I need the pasture too.
I need living water too.
I need encouragement.
I need restoration.
I need somebody to carry me sometimes.

Most importantly, I need the Shepherd.

Because before I am anybody else’s helper, encourager, fixer, prayer partner, mother, wife, friend, minister or whatever other hat I’m wearing that day— I am one of His sheep.

And sheep are supposed to eat.

So maybe the assignment isn’t nearly as complicated as I keep making it.

Stand where God placed me. Feed what He actually entrusted to me. And stop trying to feed every random sheep that wanders across my field.

Then, when I discover that what is required is bigger than what I have— don’t become the pasture. Borrow the strength.

And maybe that’s why this scripture found me tonight of all nights.

Because here I am, already supposed to be in bed, with a tired body and a dull headache—and it just occurred to me that my dinner was a scoop of sorbet.

Yep. Sorbet. For dinner. Dragon fruit at that.

I have spent so much of my life making sure everybody else is fed that apparently tonight the shepherd looked at a scoop of frozen fruit and said, “That’ll do.”

Lord, if that ain’t confirmation for the devotional I don’t know what is.

Because how am I going to write about feeding the flock while sitting here hungry myself?

And suddenly “God never asked the shepherd to become the pasture” hits differently.

Maybe I’ve gotten so accustomed to pouring out that I don’t always notice when I haven’t taken anything in.

Not just spiritually. Sometimes quite literally.

I can make sure everybody else has eaten, everybody has what they need, everybody’s problem has been addressed—and then realize at the end of the day that I have treated my own needs like an optional item on the list.

And maybe that’s part of what God is showing me.

The shepherd needs feeding too.
The shepherd needs rest too.
The shepherd needs care too.

And sometimes the evidence that I’ve forgotten that isn’t some grand spiritual revelation.

Sometimes it’s a dull headache, a tired body, and the realization that I ate sorbet for dinner.

So maybe tonight I don’t need another burst of strength so I can accomplish one more thing. Maybe I need to stop.

Maybe I need to eat something that didn’t come out of the freezer with a dessert spoon.

And then maybe I need to lie down.

After all, Psalm 23 never said the sheep found their own pasture and kept themselves going.

“He maketh me to lie down in green pastures…”

Well, Lord.

Apparently one of Your sheep has been standing long enough.

And perhaps the most obedient thing I can do now is let the Shepherd take care of me.

Prayer

Lord, apparently I needed Micah last night

Teach me the difference between what You have actually entrusted to me and the things I picked up because I thought somebody had to carry them.

Help me stand without scrambling. Help me feed without becoming the food. Help me serve without trying to become the Source.
And when I say, “Lord, I don’t have it,” remind me that maybe I was never supposed to have it all by myself. You have the strength. You have the provision. You have the wisdom.
You have the pasture.

And when I get so busy feeding everybody else that I forget I am hungry too, sit me down. Lead me beside some still waters. Restore my soul. Feed me.

And when necessary—
make this stubborn sheep lie down.
Then, when it’s time, help me get back up and stand.

Amen.

Love, Chelle

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On The Altar To Be Altered

This morning, I called my older sister.

She couldn’t answer, but she texted me back and said she was at a prayer meeting at her church.

Perfect timing, I thought. Because I had some things on my heart. Some people I love. Some situations I can’t control. So I texted her back and asked her to “throw us on the alter.”

She didn’t notice anything unusual about my message. But I did.

I had meant to type “altar”.

I started to correct myself, but I stopped and looked at the word again.

ALTER.

Then the word I intended:

ALTAR.

One little letter separates them. And suddenly, I wasn’t so sure my typo was completely wrong.

Because isn’t that what we do when life becomes bigger than our own ability to handle it? We take it to the ALTAR because we need God to ALTER something.

We bring our children to the altar because there are decisions we can’t make for them.

We bring our marriages because there are places love alone hasn’t been able to fix.

We bring our finances because sometimes the numbers simply don’t make sense.

We bring our jobs, our dreams, our grief, our fears, our disappointments, our bodies, our families and those situations that have kept us awake far too many nights.

We bring all of it. And we say, “God, I need You to alter this.”

But here’s where surrender gets a little uncomfortable. We usually arrive at the altar with a pretty good idea of “what” we’d like God to alter.

Alter them, Lord.

Alter that situation.

Alter these circumstances.

Alter this bank account while You’re at it.

And sometimes He does.

Sometimes God alters the circumstances. Sometimes He alters the timing. Sometimes He alters the direction.

Sometimes He alters a relationship, opens a door, closes another one, moves somebody, restores something, removes something or makes a way we couldn’t see coming.

But sometimes… most times…God alters us.

He alters our perspective. Our priorities. Our expectations. Our attitudes. Our willingness to wait. Our need to control the outcome.

And perhaps that’s why the altar matters so much. The altar isn’t simply the place where I lay something down and tell God what to do with it.

It’s the place where I surrender it enough to let Him decide what needs altering.

Romans 12:1 tells us to present ourselves to God as a living sacrifice.

Not just our problems. Ourselves.

So this morning, I’m taking my accidental little prayer seriously. I’m putting my “me and mine and all of thine: on the alter.

Yes, I know how to spell it. 😂

I’m putting us on the ALTAR and trusting God to ALTER whatever He knows needs to change.

My family. My circumstances. My plans. My heart.

Me.

Because maybe there really is only one letter between the place where we surrender and the change we’ve been praying for.

If you want God to ALTER it, be willing to put it on the ALTAR.

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Father, today I place myself and everyone connected to me on Your altar. I give You the things I understand and the things I don’t. The situations I can change and the ones completely beyond my reach. Alter what needs to be altered. Change circumstances where it is Your will, open doors that should open and close those that should close. But Lord, if the change needs to begin in me, give me the courage not to climb back off the altar. Change my heart, my thinking, my direction and my desires until they line up with Yours. I surrender the outcome to You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Love, Chelle
Defy Gravity Without Wings ❤️

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KEEP BELIEVING

This morning I walked into my garden carrying more than Tomato-tone.

I carried worry.

Last week’s storms had been relentless. Then life happened. Family emergencies. Hospital visits. Exhaustion. The garden got the best I could give it, but not always everything I wanted to give it.

As I made my rounds, my fears seemed justified. Several of my biggest green tomatoes had blossom end rot. Months of watering, fertilizing, staking, and waiting… only to find them ruined before they ever ripened.

I picked them off one by one and tossed them across the yard to the squirrels, who had probably been waiting all season for me to make a mistake.

I was disappointed. Maybe even a little angry.
Not just because of the tomatoes. Sometimes one rotten tomato becomes the place where everything else finally shows up.

The financial pressures.


Watching people I admired and believed would make it…walk away from marriages I thought would last forever.


Family struggles I can’t fix.


Dreams that seem to take one step forward and two steps back.


Storm after storm.

The tomatoes just happened to be what broke my heart that morning.

Then I walked around to the other side of the my garden expecting more losses. More disappointments.

But, there she was. My very first zucchini. She hadn’t even been there the last time I looked. Then I remembered something.

The bees hadn’t been showing up because of all the rain. That little zucchini only existed because, one morning, I stepped in and hand-pollinated the flower. At the time it felt almost foolish. I wondered if it would even matter.

Today I held the answer in my hand.

Isn’t that just like God?

Sometimes we become so focused on what’s been damaged that we almost miss what He’s growing on the other side.

The rotten tomatoes were real. But so was the harvest.

Maybe that’s the lesson I needed today.

Not every fruit survives the storm. But neither does every promise die in it.

The storms didn’t stop the zucchini. The rain didn’t cancel the harvest.

The bees didn’t show up… but God still did.

If God asks us to keep planting, keep watering, keep believing, He also has a way of surprising us with fruit we weren’t expecting.

Today, my first zucchini wasn’t just dinner. It was a reminder that disappointment is never the whole story.

Sometimes the blessing you’ve been praying for isn’t gone. It’s simply growing on the other side.

So if today you find yourself throwing rotten tomatoes to the squirrels, don’t leave the garden just yet. Walk around to the other side.

You just might find that while you were grieving what didn’t make it… God was quietly growing something beautiful all along.

“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” — Galatians 6:9

Love, Chelle
DefyGravityWithoutWings.com ❤️

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The Weight I Was Never Meant To Carry

My grandmother used to remind me that the devil is in the details.

Since I am not allowing the devil to win anything today, I’ll leave out the details of recent situations that wounded people I love and, in turn, wounded my heart. The specifics aren’t important anyway. Pain has a way of changing faces while telling the same story.

What surprised me wasn’t the offense itself. It was how quickly I found myself praying for the offenders before the offense had time to settle into my spirit.

Not because I am especially holy. Not because the hurt wasn’t real. Not because I suddenly understood everything.

But because I’ve lived long enough to know that bitterness is expensive. If you don’t deal with it quickly, it starts charging interest.

As I prayed, I was reminded of Job. We often focus on his suffering, his losses, and his endurance. Yet one of the most remarkable moments in his story comes when he prays for those who wounded him.

Job prayed for people who had misjudged him while he was still carrying his own wounds. He wasn’t pretending they hadn’t hurt him. He wasn’t saying they were right. He simply placed them in God’s hands instead of keeping them in his own.

I used to think release meant agreement. I thought if I stopped rehearsing the offense, I was pretending it never happened. If I stopped holding someone accountable in my heart, I was somehow declaring them innocent.

But God has been teaching me something different.

Release is not approval.

Release is trust.

It is placing people back into the hands of the One who sees everything I cannot see. The One who knows every wound, every motive, every hidden struggle, and every missed opportunity.

Sometimes the hardest people to release are not our enemies. They are the people we loved. The people who disappointed us. The people who hurt us while holding a place in our lives.

We want justice.
We want understanding.
We want healing.
We want the story to end differently.

Yet there comes a holy moment when we stop trying to manage the outcome and simply pray:

“Lord, have mercy on them.”

And in the same breath:

“Lord, have mercy on me.”

That prayer does not erase the past. It simply acknowledges that I was never meant to carry the final verdict.

Some burdens belong to God.

Some people belong to God.

And so do I.

Maybe forgiveness is not always a destination. Maybe sometimes it is a decision we make over and over again before resentment has a chance to take root. Maybe it is choosing prayer before bitterness, surrender before judgment, and trust before understanding.

Whatever it is, I know this:

The weight feels lighter when I stop carrying what was never mine to hold.

Love, Chelle

defygravitywithoutwings.com

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When “This” Doesn’t Look Like Increase

Some seasons sneak in quietly.

Not with one catastrophic moment.
Not with one dramatic phone call or one giant storm.
Just a hundred little things.

One thing goes sideways.
Then another.
Then a few more.

Health hiccups.
Emotional exhaustion.
Too much on the plate.
Things changing faster than you can catch your breath.
Prayers that feel unanswered.
Dreams that feel delayed.
People you love walking through their own battles.
And the constant pressure to keep showing up like everything is fine.

Lately, I have felt the weight of that kind of season.

Not panic exactly.
Just heavy.

The kind of heavy that sits quietly on your shoulders while you continue answering emails, paying bills, checking on people, watering plants, going to church, making dinner, and trying to convince yourself you are not as tired as you really are.

You look around at your life and think:

“This doesn’t look like increase.”

But yesterday, a friend said something to me that has been sitting deep in my spirit ever since:

“What if God makes our decrease become our increase?”

I have been sitting with that.

Because maybe increase is not always louder.
Maybe sometimes it is lighter.

Maybe God is not only found in what grows bigger.
Maybe He is also found in what He lovingly cuts away.

Gardeners understand this better than most people. Sometimes a plant looks smaller after pruning while actually becoming healthier. Dead weight is removed. Energy gets redirected. Air and light finally reach hidden places.

The cutting is not cruelty.
It is care.

And maybe some of us are in seasons where God is lovingly removing things we were never meant to carry forever.

Old pressures.
False responsibilities.
Performance-based identities.
The need to rescue everyone.
The need to prove our worth by how much we can survive.

Some seasons don’t feel like increase at all.
They feel like God quietly taking His hands off things you were never supposed to hold forever.

I know that can feel frightening. Especially for those of us who have built entire lives around being dependable. Around holding things together. Around making sure everyone else is okay.

But what if releasing is not failure?

What if the decrease is making room for breath again?

What if God is teaching us that our value was never supposed to be measured only by how much weight we could carry?

John the Baptist once said of Jesus, “He must increase, but I must decrease.” (John 3:30)

Maybe decrease was never meant to destroy us.
Maybe sometimes it is the very thing that brings us closer to what matters most.

So if your life feels quieter right now…
smaller right now…
lighter in some places and emptier in others…

Do not assume God has abandoned you there.

Some decreases are not punishment.
Some are pruning.
Some are protection.
Some are mercy.

And some are the first sign that new growth is finally about to begin.

Love, Chelle
DefyGravityWithoutWings.com

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$5 in My Pocket… Lemons at My Door

I didn’t need a miracle with flashing lights. I didn’t need a breakthrough big enough for everybody else to recognize. Honestly, I just needed my mind to slow down. Because lately, it’s been doing that thing—running numbers, replaying conversations, trying to solve tomorrow before today even finishes. Not because anything is completely falling apart, but because enough has shifted that my spirit knows to pay attention. And if I’m honest, I was thinking a little too much.

So I tried to interrupt myself. Not with prayer this time. Not with a deep scripture study. Just something simple. I had seen a sermon about decluttering—move five things in five minutes. Nothing deep. Nothing dramatic. Just… move something. So I did. One thing, then another. By the time I got to the fifth thing, I reached into the pocket of a dress I hadn’t worn in at least a year—and there it was. Five dollars.

Now let’s be clear. Five dollars is not going to change anybody’s financial situation, but it changed my moment. Because it made me smile. And in a season where your mind is trying to run ahead of you, sometimes a smile is the interruption you didn’t know you needed. I didn’t think much more about it. I just tucked the moment away and kept moving.

On the way to church, I started going through my wallet. Receipts everywhere. Old ones, faded ones, the kind you keep just in case but never actually need. So I started sorting through them, one by one, making sure there wasn’t anything important I needed to hold on to. And that’s when I saw it—another five dollars. Then another. And then another. Three crisp five-dollar bills sitting where receipts should have been.

Now wait, because this is where my spirit leaned in—not my logic, my spirit. Because four five-dollar bills is still just twenty dollars, and twenty dollars, in the grand scheme of real-life responsibilities, is not fixing anything major. But something in me knew this wasn’t about fixing. This was about finding. God wasn’t solving my situation in that moment; He was steadying my heart in it. He was saying, without saying a word, “You don’t have to carry this the way you are carrying it.” And I sat there in that car, holding those little bills like they were something bigger than money, because they were. They were peace. All magnified by the number 5 being the number of grace denoting God’s unmerited favor

Church was good. I smiled through it—not because everything was handled, but because I felt handled. And when I got home, I thought the moment was over.

I got home, and there it was—a simple bag at my door. Inside were lemons. Not one or two, but five bags—bright, yellow, beautiful lemons. Thirty of them. I stood there looking at them like, “Okay Lord… now this feels personal.” Because you’ve heard the saying, “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade,” but this didn’t feel like life. Life gives lemons with pressure. Life gives lemons and expects you to figure it out. This felt like God.

And while I was trying to figure out what to do with so many lemons, I started giving them away. Nobody knew I had them. Nobody asked for them. I just… started gifting. If you showed up at the door, you left with some. LOL.  And somewhere in that simple act, it settled in my spirit that maybe everything God places in your hands isn’t meant to stay there. Some things show up not just as provision, but as permission—to bless, to share, to lighten someone else’s day without needing a reason or an announcement.

Because He didn’t wait until I had everything figured out. He met me while I was trying not to spiral, while I was moving five small things, while I was clearing out what I didn’t need, while I was doing the little bit I could control. He didn’t flood me with answers. He didn’t overwhelm me with provision. He didn’t drop a solution big enough to remove every question. He just… found me.

He found me in a dress pocket I forgot about, in a wallet I almost ignored, in a moment where I chose not to overthink. And then He made me laugh, because who sends somebody thirty lemons unless they are trying to say something?

“Your Father knows what you need before you ask Him.” — Matthew 6:8

So no, it wasn’t about twenty dollars, and it wasn’t about lemons. It was about being reminded that I am not navigating this season by myself. That even when my thoughts start running ahead of me, God is already present where I’m trying to get to. And sometimes, He doesn’t calm your life all at once. He just leaves little confirmations along the way so your soul can rest while you walk it out.

So if your mind has been busy lately, if you’ve been trying not to worry but still feeling it creep in, if you’re doing the best you can with what’s in front of you—pay attention to the small things, the found things, the unexpected things, the things that make you smile before you can explain them. Because God doesn’t always show up loud. Sometimes, He shows up in fives.

Gently reminded that God meets you in the middle, not just at the outcome.

Love,
Chelle
DefyGravityWithoutWings.com

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When Praise Cost You A Toe ( and a Little Pride)

This morning was supposed to be simple.

Just me, a broom, and some soft worship music. Nothing dramatic. Nothing deep. Just cleaning the house and minding my business.

But somewhere between sweeping one corner and turning toward the next…
that broom turned into a rhythm.

And that rhythm turned into a sway.
And that sway turned into a little two-step.

Now listen… I have not truly praise danced since my early 30s. And even then, let’s be honest, even then,I was in the back of the sanctuary respectfully copying the professionals 😌

But this morning?
Oh, I was feeling it.
Clumsy? Yes.
Anointed? Also yes.

And for a moment, it felt free.
Like I could just stay right there…
moving, praising, forgetting everything else.

And that’s where it shifted.

Because instead of staying in the praise,
my mind wandered into the problems I was trying to outdance.

Like Peter stepping out on the water in Matthew 14:29–30. As long as his eyes were on Jesus, he was good. But the moment he looked at the wind? He started sinking.

Well…The moment I stopped focusing on the praise and started focusing on everything else… I didn’t sink.

I stubbed my pinky toe.

And not just a polite little tap either. No ma’am. The kind that makes you see your whole life flash before your eyes.

Which then threw me off balance…
which then reminded my knee about that old meniscus injury from my 30s…

So now I’m in the middle of my living room,
half praising, half limping, trying to decide if I need prayer or an ice pack.

But here’s the thing Even through the pain, my thoughts got corrected. Because I realized:

Praising your way through something will cost you if you stop mid-praise to pick your problems back up.

You can’t hold both.
Not well anyway.

And right there—in between the limp and the laughter— I had to laugh at myself. Because I know I looked like something.

Just me… off beat… off balance…
still trying to be faithful in the middle of it.
And while nobody else saw it…

God did. And I believe He smiled. Because it wasn’t perfect. But it was real.

And if you needed this today…

Go ahead and praise anyway.
Even if it’s off rhythm.
Even if it’s in your kitchen.
Even if it turns into a wobble instead of a dance. Just… keep your eyes in the right place.

And if you do happen to stumble? Laugh, reset, and keep moving. Because the goal was never perfection.

It was presence.

Love, Chelle
defygravitywithoutwings.com 💛

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Not Chained. Positioned.

It’s 1:15 a.m.
The house is quiet, but my mind isn’t.
My spirit is talking, but my thoughts keep trying to interrupt. And if I’m honest, I don’t even want to go where my mind keeps taking me.

Because yesterday… I got burned.
Not a misunderstanding.
Not a small thing I can laugh off later.
Burned.
And not the kind you can just pray off and keep it moving like nothing happened.

And the part that makes it sit heavy in my chest is this: I’m still expected to show up tomorrow like nothing happened.
Smiling. Producing. Performing.
Because apparently… healing is not on the job description.

Because responsibilities don’t pause for disappointment. Bills don’t care about betrayal. And sometimes… purpose doesn’t immediately pull you out of uncomfortable places.

So there I was… sitting in the quiet, feeling tired in a way sleep can’t fix and the thought slipped in:

“I’m chained to this situation.”


Gee… I didn’t even like how that sounded coming out of my own mouth. But just as quickly… something in my spirit pushed back.

Not loud.
Not dramatic.
Just steady:

“You’re not chained… you’re positioned.”

Whew.

Because chained means stuck. No movement. No options. No end.
But positioned? Positioned means this is not permanent… no matter how long it’s been.
Positioned means there is purpose even here.
Positioned means you’re still on your way somewhere.

So I had to correct myself. I am not chained.
I am in transition with responsibilities.
And that changes how I stand in this space.

It means I don’t burn bridges out of frustration but I also don’t build my identity in a place that hurt me.

It means I pay attention. Because what hurt me also showed me something.
How people move.
What I can and cannot depend on.
Where I need boundaries.

What happened yesterday? That wasn’t just pain. That was data. And baby… I take notes.
And data helps you move wiser.

So instead of letting my mind replay the moment or fast-forward me into feeling stuck forever, I made a decision in the quiet:

I will deal with this tomorrow. Not at 1:15 a.m. Because I am not losing sleep over something God is already handling.

Because this hour isn’t for fixing. It’s for listening. And when I listened,I heard it clearly:
“I am not chained. I am collecting what I need before I move.”

So I’ll show up. I’ll do what needs to be done.
Not because they deserve my best… but because I do.

But I won’t shrink. I won’t forget who I am or whose child I am. And I won’t mistake a temporary season for a permanent assignment.

To be clear… just because I’m still here doesn’t mean I’m staying. Because even here,

God is still positioning me.



For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord… “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29



Love,
Chelle
DefyGravityWithoutWings.com 💛

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Release While In Motion


It was one of those days that needed me to be focused.

Not halfway. Not distracted.
The kind of day where details matter, timing matters, and anything pulling at your attention feels like it’s trying to sabotage something important.

And yet… my mind would not sit still.

It kept circling the same place.
Big decisions. Career. Finances. Life.

The kind of decisions that don’t come with a clear map. The kind that make you pause long enough to ask God, “Am I supposed to stay… or am I free to go?”

So somewhere in the middle of moving, thinking, preparing, and trying to keep my day on track, I said it:

“Lord… I need You to tell me I’m released.”

Not emotional. Not panicked. Just honest.

Because I wasn’t trying to escape anything…
I just didn’t want to stay somewhere out of habit when You had already given permission to move.

And without missing a beat…God answered me in traffic.

A car passed by with the license plate:

GodHVUS

I paused.

Because… okay Lord. I hear You.

A few minutes later, another one rolled past:

DBLBLSD

Now I’m sitting there like… “Sir… are You serious right now?”

And then it settled in. Not just what passed me… but what I was already sitting in.

My own car. My own plate.

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“See, I am doing a new thing; now it springs up—do you not perceive it?” — Isaiah 43:19

I asked God for release… and He answered with coverage, increase, and a reminder I had been carrying the whole time.

God has us. Double blessed. Renewed too.

And just like that, what felt heavy…
shifted.

Because release doesn’t always come with a loud announcement. Sometimes it comes with peace that quietly replaces pressure. Sometimes it shows up while you’re still in motion… not when you’ve stopped everything to go looking for it.

God doesn’t just release you from a place.
He renews you for the next one.

Because walking into something new with an old mindset will have you second-guessing doors He already opened.

It will make you call provision “too uncertain”
and growth “too uncomfortable.”

But when God is in it…there is a steadiness that follows.

Not because you have every answer but because you know you’re not walking alone.

So if you find yourself in the middle of a busy day… trying to hold everything together while quietly asking God for direction,

Pay attention.

He may not stop your schedule to answer you. But He will meet you right in it. And when He does…you won’t have to force clarity.

It will roll right past you.

Love, Chelle
defygravitywithoutwings.com