Every time the forecast whispers snow, Virginia loses its mind.
Milk disappears first. Bread follows. Eggs become currency. And suddenly people who haven’t cooked since 2014 are preparing for Snowmageddon: The Reckoning.
This morning, listening to the low-grade panic hum through social media, I thought of my grandma.
No emergency rations. No twelve-step preparedness plan. No frantic news watching.
Just quiet confidence.
Flour meant I can make something. Butter and sugar meant comfort is still allowed. Coffee meant sit down, we’re talking. Milk meant somebody might need care. Eggs meant breakfast feeds more than hunger. Salt meant wisdom — because everything needs seasoning. Tea bags meant there’s time to slow down. And bacon? Bacon meant joy is practical.
Grandma didn’t fear snow. She respected it. And if it wasn’t the first snow, she’d be outside making snow cream like it was just another blessing falling from the sky.
She lived what Scripture later put into words: “She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.” (Proverbs 31:25)
She knew storms came — and went. She knew how to stretch what she had. She knew a warm kitchen calmed cold nerves better than any headline ever could.
What strikes me most now is this: Her list wasn’t about survival. It was about presence.
Enough on hand to feed whoever showed up. Enough calm to keep the house steady. Enough wisdom not to confuse inconvenience with catastrophe.
We live in a time where every storm is framed like the end of the world. But some of us were raised by women who understood that preparation doesn’t require panic — and peace doesn’t require abundance.
So if snow comes this week, let it snow. Well… I’m no snow lover — even if I was born in January — but I trust the kind of wisdom that keeps coffee brewing, tea steeping, and bacon sizzling.
I’ll be thinking about grandma. Her list. Her calm. And the quiet strength of knowing that love, when prepared, is never caught off guard.
I was standing there with a handful of seeds and no idea what any of them were. No labels. No instructions. No promises. Just seeds.
Some were round. Some looked like dust. Some looked like… dirt pretending to be something important.
And full confession — I made the executive decision to buy them from a discount house online, which should have been my first clue that clarity was not included in the price.
Because planting unmarked seeds feels risky. You don’t know what you’re committing to. You don’t know how long it will take. You don’t know what kind of care it will need — or if you just planted hope, oregano, and disappointment all in the same row.
And that is where I had to repent of my disgust with not being able to see the seeds’ vision.
God has planted a lot of unmarked seeds in me. No timeline. No instruction card. No neat little packet that says “This will bloom in 90 days if watered weekly and protected from disappointment, other people’s opinions, and your own impatience.”
Just obedience. Just trust. Just dirt and hope. Some seeds He plants look insignificant — almost invisible. Some feel mislabeled by other people. Some feel like they were handed to us without explanation at all.
And yet… seeds don’t need labels to know what they are. They just need soil. Light. Time.
And a gardener who doesn’t dig them up every five minutes to check progress — which, for the record, I have learned is frowned upon in both gardening and faith.
I think that’s where I get tripped up. I keep wanting proof before growth. Confirmation before commitment. Fruit before faith.
But the seed already knows what it carries — even when I don’t.
“So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives the growth.” — 1 Corinthians 3:7
Maybe the confusion isn’t failure. Maybe it’s faith in its earliest form. Maybe God is saying: Plant it anyway. Water it anyway. Stop interrogating the soil. Because unmarked doesn’t mean unintentional. And unseen doesn’t mean unimportant. And dormant is not the same thing as dead.
I’ll admit it — I went into a little shock when I learned blueberries and strawberries operate on a two-to-three-year growth plan. Years. Plural.
I stood there staring at seeds like they had personally betrayed me.
Up until that moment, I genuinely thought I was being resourceful. Frugal. Garden-savvy. A woman with a plan.
Turns out, I had signed up for a long-term relationship without reading the commitment clause.
That’s when I decided I’m not planting berries until I move into my forever home. Because berries don’t do well with temporary addresses. They want stability. Consistency. A place where nobody’s packing boxes just as the harvest shows up.
And honestly? I get it now.
I finally understand why blueberries and strawberries cost what they do at the store. It’s not inflation — it’s time. It’s patience. It’s years of watering something that gives you nothing back except leaves and hope.
I really thought it was a good idea. And it was — just not for this season.
Jesus talked a lot about seeds, soil, and timing. He never rushed growth — He explained it.
“First the blade, then the ear, then the full grain in the ear.” (Mark 4:28)
Nothing about that process is instant. Nothing about it is wasted.
Even Jesus waited. Thirty years before public ministry. Hidden seasons. Quiet obedience. Roots forming where no one was applauding.
So I’ll wait too. Not because I lack faith — but because I’ve learned that timing matters.
Some things are worth planting when you know you can stay long enough to enjoy the fruit.
Until then, I’ll pay store prices with a little more humility… and a lot more respect for the journey those berries have been on.
Because growth was never the problem. Timing was the lesson.
Not because He was lazy. Not because the need was gone. Not because the work was finished.
But because He knew when to pour Himself out — and when to be filled again by the Father.
He stepped away while people still needed Him. He withdrew while expectations still waited. He rested even though the world would have gladly kept pulling.
“But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.” — Luke 5:16
(Jesus withdrew to quiet places. I withdraw to the couch and pretend I’m just “thinking.”)
Last night my body kept waking me up like it was tapping my shoulder saying, Hey. We’re done pretending.
Every hour on the hour. No deep rest. No drifting off.
Thoughts of what I needed to do today were keeping me awake, while those same thoughts were making me tired.
But, yet, there was a quiet insistence that something holy was being ignored.
(Jesus rested. I call it a “strategic pause,” because the word nap feels too optimistic.)
Here is the truth tired women rarely hear out loud:
Rest is not quitting. Pausing is not disobedience. Taking a break is not a lack of faith.
Sometimes it is the most faithful thing you can do.
Jesus didn’t withdraw because He didn’t care. He withdrew because He did — because love that lasts must return to its Source.
(Jesus took a break. I took one too once — accidentally, in the driveway, with the car still running.)
Today I will not apologize for being tired. I will not spiritualize exhaustion. I will not confuse availability with holiness.
I will follow Jesus — even if that means following Him somewhere quiet.
And if all I manage today is showing up gently, that will be enough.
Because Jesus took a break. And somehow… that sets me free.
So if you can’t find me today, I am on the couch with Jesus. Wake Him and ask permission to wake me.
Love, Chelle
Footstep Notes: Luke 5:16; Mark 1:35; Matthew 14:23
“I would have fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” — Psalm 27:13
1/7/18.
I will always remember that date like a star date in the Star Trek Captain’s Log.
It started as a normal Sunday setup. I had just finished cleaning around the sound booth and was adjusting everything to get ready for that morning’s praise and worship. Service was running a few minutes behind, but we were still riding the spiritual high of pre-worship hour prayer.
Then it happened. My phone rang.
I almost never answer my phone during service. In fact, just two minutes earlier, I had nudged one of our teenagers about using their phone during Sunday school.
But I recognized the number. That familiar 264 exchange—the one every “kidney family” in my region of Virginia knows by heart. Breathless. Full of anticipation. Almost terrified. Palms sweating, face flushed in seconds. I answered to the coordinator’s urgent voice:
“WHERE ARE YOU?”
You see, protocol dictates that when the organ sharing center receives a possible match, they must first confirm that the prospective recipient is within four hours of their chosen transplant hospital. Once your location is confirmed, they tell you they’ll call back—and promptly hang up.
Yes. You read that right.
In one of the shakiest moments of your life, they hang up with a promise to call you back within an hour… or so… if it’s a good match.
I was still in the sound booth. My son was seated in his usual spot, about six rows in front of me. I didn’t know whether to tell him that his life might be about to change. We had already been disappointed by calls like this—twice before.
So instead, I texted him: “Be ready to go when I tap you.”
His response was simple: “Ok.” He didn’t ask why. He didn’t question me. He just trusted that if I said go, we go.
For me, however, the next 59 minutes would be the longest of my entire life. Time and space seemed to stand still. The room suddenly felt too warm, the air too stale. I can’t even remember if I set the microphones correctly. The pastor could have been shouting and I wouldn’t have heard him. The praise team was faithfully belting out worship songs my impatient ears could not discern.
All I could distinguish was the steady rhythm of the drum—now matching my racing heartbeat.
About 45 minutes into the wait, I had to correct my course. Not on the soundboard. In myself.
I found myself apologizing—to God, to Jesus, to the Holy Spirit. I had become so consumed with the call that I had stopped truly worshiping. I had stopped listening to the Word being preached.
I was esteeming what I wanted from God more than I was esteeming God Himself. And in that moment, it felt as though the Holy Spirit was echoing the same question in my heart: “WHERE ARE YOU?”
I steadied myself. I readied myself. Through tears and trembling faith, I began to worship again—declaring that as desperately as I wanted this gift to free my son from five long years of agonizing dialysis, I wanted the Presence of the Lord even more.
As my spiritual hunger was met with the assurance that God was with me no matter what, I heard in my spirit, “Hang up.”
At that exact moment, I looked down at the phone I had been clutching in my hand—and it rang. With tears streaming, I answered. Joyfully, 58 minutes into the wait, the coordinator said: “HOW FAST CAN YOU GET HERE?”
And that is the stuff our walk with Christ is made of. How often do we approach God wanting—and even needing—something deeply tied to a promise we believe He made, only to find ourselves overwhelmed by the waiting? Too often, our “knock and the door shall be opened” faith quietly shifts into a heartsick lifestyle of disappointment, dissatisfaction, and even unbelief—unless we see the manifestation.
Hebrews 11:6 reminds us that “he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” Notice it says seek Him. Not diligently seek it.
When God asks, “Where are you?” may we be found seeking Him—not just the thing we hope He’ll give us. When He seems to hang up, trust that He will call again. Trust God. Trust His goodness. Even when it feels distant—it is still His plan. Even when it unfolds differently than expected—it is still His plan. Even when the answer is no—for reasons greater than we understand—better is still His plan. Reset your need for control. Let God have His way.
One last question: Since we trust that God is always right on time… how fast can you get here?
There are days when the world feels too loud for jokes.
The headlines carry war, division, fear, and the slow erosion of freedoms we once assumed were permanent. The ground feels less steady. The future feels less certain.
And the little clown in me—the one who usually believes laughter can soften almost anything—finds herself mourning.
Not because hope is gone. But because peace matters too much to pretend this doesn’t hurt.
Psalm 91 doesn’t ask us to deny danger. It invites us to dwell. “Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91:1)
Protection, here, is not earned. It is not performed. It is not proven by volume, certainty, or strength. It is positional. To dwell is to stay. To remain. To practice presence when the world feels unrecognizable.
This is protection without performance. Not faith that shouts. Not hope that rushes to fix. Not peace that pretends everything is fine. Just presence—steady, near, covering.
The promise of Psalm 91 is not that trouble will disappear, but that God does not. The shadow does not move. The refuge does not close. The shelter does not require us to be unafraid—only willing to come close.
So today, the clown in me removes her red shoes. She sits on holy ground— trusting the same God who once said, “Stay.” Trusting that what marks the door also guards the dwelling. She mourns for peace honestly. And still—quietly—she dwells in hope.
Today’s practice is simple: not fixing, not proving, not performing— just dwelling in His Presence.
—- God of refuge and nearness, When the world feels unstable and peace feels fragile, help me to dwell rather than strive. Teach me to trust Your presence more than my ability to understand what is happening around me. Let Your covering be enough today. Amen.
This wasn’t a quiet, reflective night moment. This was a stressed 3 a.m. morning, when sleep clocks out early and your brain clocks in loud — with opinions.
I wasn’t trying to hear from God. I was trying to finish a work email before coffee, which already tells you I was operating without full emotional supervision.
I kept shortening it. Not because I didn’t know what I wanted to say — but because I know my boss. I know there may still be a meeting. I know she’ll ultimately direct and take charge. So I trimmed. Simplified. Took out the pre-explaining and the imaginary rebuttals. I said what needed to be said and stopped trying to manage the outcome.
And somewhere between rereading sentences and realizing I was too tired to argue with myself, it landed:
This is exactly how we treat God.
We make plans — good ones — and then we hover. We explain too much. We brace for redirection. We add footnotes to obedience.
Not because we don’t trust Him — but because we really like being on the steering committee.
Meanwhile, God has already given us the playback in His Word.
He’s already shown us how authority works. How obedience works. How trust works.
We do our part. We speak honestly. We move wisely. And then we let go — preferably before caffeine convinces us we should take over.
“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” – Proverbs 16:9
Not might. Not if He agrees. He does.
This morning reminded me that obedience isn’t about directing God — it’s about participating with Him. Doing what’s mine to do without trying to edit the ending.
I don’t need to manage God the way I manage emails. I don’t need to anticipate His response. And I definitely don’t need to rewrite His plan before coffee.
Sometimes the most faithful thing we can do is hit send, make the coffee, and trust God with the meeting that follows.
Prayer Lord, help me do my part without trying to control Yours. Teach me to trust You with the outcome, even before the coffee kicks in. Order my steps, steady my heart, and remind me that You’re already ahead of me. Amen.
I woke up smiling this morning. Not because everything is fixed. Not because the season has suddenly gotten easier. But because I was reminded—before my feet even hit the floor—that God still speaks.
An old friend texted me a few days ago wanting to send me a birthday gift. A cash offering. She said it might be late and she wasn’t sure how much.
I immediately told her no.
Not because I didn’t need it—but because I know her story. I know her struggles. I didn’t want her putting herself out for me. My heart was in the right place… or so I thought.
She gently stopped me and said, “God told me to sow—and I won’t interfere with God talking to me.”
Well then. Message received. Loud and clear.
Here’s the part I hadn’t said out loud to anyone: With a season of illness, deaths, job issues, a roof repair, and the bills that follow close behind, one of the quiet things I let go of was me. Specifically—my hair. Long twist locs reduced to a ponytail (which is no small feat), creative parting, strategic styling, and gray hairs hollering, “Didn’t you just get old?”
I was debating whether to cancel my usual four-hour appointment this weekend—or worse, swipe a credit card while praying over the interest rate.
But look at God.
With exactly what she sent, the Old Lady Rescue will be in full effect. No debt. No guilt. Just provision—with intention.
But the real miracle wasn’t the money.
“Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,” says the Lord Almighty. (Zechariah 4:6 (NIV)
It was confirmation—on both sides—that God still speaks. And He doesn’t just speak to pastors, prophets, or people with microphones. He speaks to friends. To women who listen. To hearts that say yes before they fully understand why.
I was reminded this morning that God provides for all things. Even the things we label as “extra.” Even Saturday-morning self-care. Even hair.
And I was reminded of something else: sometimes our well-meaning “no” gets in the way of someone else’s obedience.
I thought I was protecting her. Instead, I would’ve robbed us both— her of the joy of obedience, and me of the grace God had already assigned.
“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.” John 10:27 (NIV)
There’s a line from the old sitcom Will & Grace that came rushing back to me this morning. One character is frustrated, asking why God doesn’t talk anymore. Another replies: “When having conversations with God, make sure you’re not doing all the talking.”
Lesson learned.
Sometimes God’s answer sounds like a text message. Sometimes provision looks like hair being restored before pride is. And sometimes Grace shows up laughing—right alongside gratitude, when we submit to His Will.
Today, I’m thankful. Not just for the gift—but for the reminder to listen… and not interfere when God speaks.
Love, Chelle
PS. A BIG thank you to my Christmas music loving, sugary named, millionaire by multiplication, friend who knows how to hear God !!!
I still don’t know what I’m doing. The sweet potato in the jar in my window can confirm it.
I stood it upright like a microphone instead of laying it down like a seed. Slips are forming anyway—which feels both rude and deeply grace-filled.
By every measurable standard, I am grossly underqualified for this harvest. I don’t garden with confidence — I garden with Google and apologies. I whisper encouragement to my plants like they’re on a faith journey too.
And yet… green keeps showing up.
Scripture says, “Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin.” — Zechariah 4:10
Apparently, this applies to gardeners too.
The sweet potato didn’t ask for my credentials. It didn’t wait for me to feel confident. It just responded to warmth, light, and the fact that I didn’t give up on it.
That feels uncomfortably familiar.
God has never waited for my expertise before growing something in my care. He responds to availability, not mastery. To people who stay put long enough for growth to decide it’s safe.
I keep expecting God to say, “You’re not ready for this yet.” Instead, He keeps saying, “Watch.”
Watch what grows when you stop over-correcting. Watch what happens when you don’t uproot yourself every time doubt shows up. Watch what slips free when the season is right.
Turns out God grows things even when the gardener is winging it.
I may be underqualified. But I’m determined. And apparently… that’s enough for a harvest.
Disappointment doesn’t usually knock loudly. It just keeps adding weight.
Brick by brick, we pack the backpack: • unmet expectations • things we thought God would do by now • roles we keep carrying because “someone has to” • stories we tell ourselves about who we are and what’s possible
And if I’m honest, this is the same part of me that tries to carry all the groceries in one trip. Because clearly, asking for help would be admitting weakness… and making two trips would be a personal failure.
So there I am — keys dangling, bags cutting off circulation, dignity questionable — determined to prove I’ve got this. I call it independence. Heaven calls it unnecessary.
And somewhere between the car and the kitchen, I’m reminded that even Jesus sent the disciples out two by two.
Inevitably, something falls. Or worse… something gets left in the trunk.And a couple of days later, there’s a smell. A mysterious, soul-searching smell that forces a reckoning.
Nothing humbles you faster than realizing the real burden wasn’t the bags — it was the banana you refused to admit you dropped.
That’s how unexamined burdens work too. What we refuse to set down eventually announces itself. Some of the limits we feel aren’t placed by God — they’re placed by our own expectations of how we think He should move.
We overpack faith with control. We leave no room for surprise. No room for grace. No room for God to have His way — because the backpack is already full.
Jesus never asked us to be strong and burdened. He asked us to come — and let Him carry what we were never meant to hold.
“Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you.” — Psalm 55:22
Maybe today isn’t about pushing harder. Maybe it’s about making two trips. Or — heaven forbid — asking for help.
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